Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Look Closely, Slow It Down

No, really. Slow it down completely.

It's true when they say we are all in a big rush. I know I am.
Even though I sit down on my behind all day, searching blogs, drinking coffee and wasting valuable resources - such as water.
I thought my life was slow enough, and maybe it is. But my mind? No, my mind's constantly racing. Even when I'm not aware.

My insomnia decided to be a nuisance last night and kept me up, so you know what I did? I searched cute blogs all night. I found some pretty adorable things that made me feel warm and fuzzy, which is always a good thing. I thought I'd been paying close attention, just taking my time, until today when I revisted the ones I'd bookmarked.
I thought I'd bookmarked them on the page I was up to, but I hadn't. My bookmarking didn't work. You know what though? I didn't even realise until after a while. I found myself sitting in awe at a lot of images, images that made me think to myself "I've never seen something so beautiful".
But I had. In fact, I'd seen them all the night before but either, for some reason because of my downright shitty mood I was in, they didn't seem so beautiful to me. Or, my mind was just racing.
I think it's a combination of both. Without even realising, I had skipped over some breathtaking photographs!
It made me wonder, how often am I sidetracked?! Is it my mood?
If I was in a really depressed mood today, would I have not liked any single one of these photographs?
I don't know.

Watch this.


Something we did in our psychology class.

Are we ever fully here?

Jenny Sinkaberg

You so sexy! She's a new face and I hope she goes really well in her career, because honestly, she's gorgeous!

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

The 411

Yes, I do have a new blog

but, i shall still be using this one too. However, my new blog will be updated almost daily, it is within a purpose. The concept of my other blog will not "work" if it is not updated regularly.

Both are for my twisted thoughts, however both are for different kinds.
See if you can decipher their meanings.



Monday, March 29, 2010

Watch Out For The Assholes?

How about avoiding them altogether?
I plan on making curling up and dreaming my constant reality. My bed and I will soon be bestfriends.

I may even stop eating and disappear in the meantime? If only my willpower were so strong.

Monday, March 22, 2010

I Hate Myself

So much today, tomorrow and this week

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

I Played It Safe

daring adjective
2.bold or courageous; fearless or intrepid; adventurous

To be daring used to involve jumping from the topmost diving board, being the first out of your friends to test something, it was wearing that jumper your aunty bought for you. To be daring used to be safe.

Today, I'm being daring in whole new way. Everyday I accomplish something daring. That something, is to wake up and breathe. This daring is unknown, this daring is not safe.

To be daring is not how it used to be.

Monday, March 15, 2010

I'm Not Anyone

I'm not even someone.

Because if I won't be strong
I won't be anyone

Because if I don't be strong
I won't be remembered as someone

Saturday, March 13, 2010


And no one can save you now
Unless you have friends among fish
There’ll still be no air to breathe
You could drink up the entire ocean
We’ll still find someone to be everything we know that you’ll never be

Wednesday, March 10, 2010


Why must the good take their lives when the bad make them do it?

Monday, March 8, 2010

Days Spent

I spend my days looking at art.
I spend my days pretending to complete homework, or thinking up excuses for why it's not done.
I spend my days regretting my last decision.
I spend my days eating crappy food because I'm over caring.
I spend my days getting closer to my death.
I spend my days wishing I was anyone but me.