I honestly feel this way sometimes.
I mean, I often feel I'm dragging my boyfriend down with all my troubles and with all the nasty things my illness does to me. I feel more trouble than good.
And as to friends, not that I really have many, they will never ever begin to understand what's going on right now and sometimes I feel like they've stopped trying. People are so selfish these days. Maybe we should just go on alone, or with our soul mates and just exist like this. Confiding in only one other, you can help with their problems and they can help with yours.
I'm sick of trying, I'm sick of being on my best behaviour and I'm sick of caring so much when no one cares for anyone but themselves.